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Ok so I'm between King Lear explications... and about half-way done with the Bioethics paper thing... so I guess I'll procrastinate because I want to actually write in my livejournal in 2008. SO to start I'm gonna do a 2007 in review thing- kind of like Kate(coughexactlythesameaskates)
January:
“What is the feeling when you're driving away from people, and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? -it's the too huge world vaulting us, and it's good-bye. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.”~Jack Keuroac
[first entry of 2007]
Today I realized how awesome this place is. I mean, I know we're all supposed to be angsting these four years out or whatever. And we all have to many tests, too much drama, too little honesty. The thing is- I've never known anything else, just Acton. I've never lived in another country or state or even in a city or anything. This is it. I mean, My whole world is here
Maybe it was so many people being so sad, maybe it was the beauty of the impact one person can have, or maybe just the realization of how someone can be there and then just not be.
I GOT MY LICENCE!!!!!!!!!!
[but I guess I couldn't spell it b:)]
Friday Hannah and Kate and Izzy (for a little while) came over to watch Cabaret and eat fried food. It was lovely and we read backdated issues of YM and learned how to flirt.
February
Someday Soon I Will
A) Stop thinking about boys in general... mainly two specific boys
B) Spend more time with Nikki (we should get on that)
C) Stop wasting so much time on facebook, lj, email, youtube, etc...
D) Study for Chem
E) Go to bed at a decent hour
F) Stop blurting out everything that happens to me to random people (specifically Kate and Whit)
G) Not die on this poetry paper thing (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!)
H) Be a morning person (Hokay this isn't gonna happen... a girl can dream right?)
I) All Of The Above
I hung out with Whit, Emily, Nikki, Kenrick, Rey, and some other guy
The problem with having such amazing and beautiful friends is that I look at them and I look at myself and it's kind of hard to beleive that they'd even want to be friends with me at all. These people, well, they're so completly amazing and sometimes (most of the time) they don't even realize how beautiful.
Being alone today didn't suck because I'm not alone at all. I was with totally awsome people all day. Happy Valentines Day Everyone
2)"Love each other unconditionally and sometimes naked" [dollege]
March
In a really little amount of time you guys took some actors, a guitar, a script and it became FUCKING AMAZING. I couldn't be prouder of all of you
The anger in your life scares me so much and I want to help you, I will help you. I just don't know how.
I won't go into it. but what I feel right now:
exhaustion
anger
disgust
really really burnt out
"why the hell would there be an elephant in my closet of all place... and last I checked it didn't matter that he was there, at least not really" And I have to think it through to make sure it is actually an elephant and not some weird Deja Vu thing.
God I love my kids so much. And this random guy who works there was really nice and it kind of restored my faith in dudes.
We went sledding (so I guess the snow wasn't totally worthless) and wore many layers and it was entirely lovely
Psycho Paper... Qu'est-ce que c'est?
just printed my poetry paper. It's done and good or bad its over. I feel like this massive stress has just disappeared.
I got my SAT results and I was aiming for a 1900 or so but ended up with 2120
For lunch today Eric and I went to his house and he made quesidillas and this fried cheese stuff.
April
It seems like the theme of the year is people dieing. It sucks but it just keeps happening.
What a good way to spend a Tuesday
I love you all and I just know we're gonna take Europe by storm. See you tommorow morning...
So tommorow we get on a big magical metal bird and we end up in Florence- I can't wait.
May
Yesterday I came home and went running and just ran and ran until it was dark
But seriously what kind of birthday wish is it that two of your best friends in the world will come home from their respective mental institutions in time for your birthday? I mean who has that as the thing they want for their 17th Birthday,
Anyways after Katie's I went with Lily and Craig and this kid on my bus and Craig's friend up to Nashua to this diner movie place and saw Spider Man 3.
Anys i'm crushing on the warmth and the sun and the rain and a boy and late night car rides with friends and strangers and new friends and old friends
LIke when you decide that you might like a nice healthy salad and suddenly they show up at your table with a platter with one of those metal covers over it and it's so much easier then getting up to go to the salad bar but you don't know whether or not you'll find the thing on the silver platter nearly as platable.....
We missed school Friday and spent the weekend saving the world as Denmark.
On the bright side it looks like I'm gonna have a summer job working at a farmstand so that should be interesting and i think really worthwhile. [worthwhile??!?!??! WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!?!]
June
Today after school I sat on Molly's roof with her in the absolutely torrential downpour. It was one of the most amazing 15-20 minutes I've had all year. it wasn't really talking so much as simply being. I can't really describe how amazing it felt. I didn't care about anything. Boys, school, SATs, late essays, none of it really mattered. I was alive, and I was with one of the most beautiful people I've ever known, and it was warm, and it was wet, and it was perfect.
And my friends leave me crazy messages, and a mysterious boy wrote kind things in my honesty box, and next Wednesday I'm hanging out with lovely people, and soon all this finals stuff will be well and done
But now French is happening and much as I love Madame I don't love French tests.
Tonight was really nice. And I didn't get lost on the way home. [<3]
July
in the past week we've climbed mountains, white water rafted, zip lined, rapelled off a three story bridge and into a massive gorge, smelled bad, stayed in a sketchy part of milan, spent a ton of money, eaten a lot of cheese, smelled bad, bought stuff, spent a ton of money.... and had lots of fun.
August
Today I went to Canobie Lake Park with Craig.... and it was absolutly amazing!!! and I went on one of those crazy upside down roller coasters for the first time ever- and yes I'm begining to think i'm quite mad but damn did I enjoy it
September
But after school I went to work and remembered why I love kids and then I went with Katie and Eric to dinner and remembered why I love everything else, including myself.
October
Why is it we must get older? Grow up? Move Away?
Just being here in this time, with these people... it's amazing and I can't believe that this time next year everything will be so different...
It's weird- all of this. I wasn't ever expecting to feel like this. But suddenly so many things seem so right. THis is the first time I haven't just broken up with a boy when things didn't go exactly right
Here's to senior year: to not doing homework, to boyfriends, to love, to driving around and not really having classes, to downloading music. Here's to being alive, to having the best friends ever, to doing mad things just because you can, to feeling beautiful, to just sitting a talking. Here's to loving the things you have, to trying to change the world, to being seventeen. Here's to growing up after all.
November
LIke people always say that the news manipulates stories and I don't think I've ever seen it so firsthand before. I guess after reading that I'll have a harder time trusting humanitarian stories
I think I've tried to say it maybe 100 times but being with Craig is simply amazing.
I don't really have a best friend or anything. I always just have a bunch of really really close friends. And thats really great, really it is.
Cabaret was definatly one of the best ever. but more than that... I can't believe its over... we're done. That is so weird to me.
December
This is it. I JUST HIT SUBMIT ON EVERYTHING!
all the forms are in
all the apps are in
everything is paid for
what happens now?.
If you could relive any moment which would you choose? maybe some parts of the summer or of last winter... maybe the weepies concert or the day we all went to christians or something... lots of good times... switzerland or Italy
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thats it.... this is it. Class of 08- IT IS 08.......
right now we own the entire world. I'm excited for who I am now. For what I did last year. For everything I hope to do this year...
I also don't think I've ever had a better new years eve.... EVER... and I kind of doubt I ever will.
but that's ok. So many songs to listen to/ quote... so many people I love... so much homework i should be doing right now instead...
Ohhhh life...
Happy 2008 future! |
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